平淡的一天，平淡的生日。

当时间转得比脑精还快时，思绪、感官都迷失在那时光隧道里。

生日，或许还是一个平常的一天。

只是，多了祝福，多了贺礼，多了惊喜。

感谢大家的祝福，感谢大家的心意。

开始领悟到，生日，或许不必轰轰烈烈地度过，

只要一句话，就能让让这一天，

格外开心。

Met Xin Yi yesterday while I was heading to buy lunch. Lovely couple, she and her bf. She was heading back to school for lessons, then NPCC training. It was their promotion parade yesterday.

 How fast can time fly?  Sigh. Not only have I missed their trainings for a year, I have also stopped going to the website for a while. Such a failure... ... I wonder where I got the cheek to say that I love NPCC, lols.

She kindly invited me to return and join the parade, something that shocked me very much. I have been MIA for a year plus, yet she said that there are people who missed me. I wonder, if it is true, I really wonder. However, it is still very touching and heartwarming to hear about such things.

I doubt if I still have the knowledge to train them even if I head back, but being able to hear what Xin Yi had said, I have no regrets.

I believe, that we will be able to meet each other and stay in contact even if I have stopped going training.

I believe, that we will meet in NP again, in the near future.

I believe, that even for some reasons I didn't attend the POP, I won't shed a tear.
I've never been able to attend your swearing-in ceremony, I've never had a squad photo taken with everybody in full uniform. If everything goes according to what I've predicted, our relation will have no formal beginning and ending, with no memories recorded whatsoever.

But, I have no regrets... ...

Labels: 垃圾创作, 垃圾创作 (P)

Was chatting with Jun Hao and Jianan earlier on about about lives in UG during secondary school days. Jianan didn't say much, but he possesses an aura that explained everything, an aura long felt after we know each other. We were walking past a group of greenhorns when suddenly they stopped and greeted "Gd afternoon Jianan sir!"

Superb. A remarkable UG indeed. Keeping his cool, sharing very little about trival achievements from the past. A sir indeed!


Came home in the evening and Jason talked to me for a while. It was only after today that I've realised that the statement made is true: Once a Riversidian, always a Riversidian. Upon mentioning UG, I am immediately stuck in a dilemma that till now, I still cannot shake off. Some values of UG has been infused into my life, some memories are so good that I cannot let go, memories that made me feel so lost and empty today.

I missed the days I have you guys around me. Seeing you guys make my day, working hard with you guys make me energised. I cannot forget your faces, your smiles, and it makes me hard to believe how fast time flies. A level year for me, O level year for you guys. How I wish we can go through these together, but I am in no state to do so now. Everything has become a luxury, as I start to seal myself, inside out to work, and only work...

Empty, for the sake of future...

终于有机会读完这一本书。应该是从去年起，书名一直在我耳朵荡，却没机会借到。跑到台湾的买，却被团友把整橱九把刀的书卖完了。

终于有机会借到它，在我低迷的时候，带着我走出困境。我被书里爱情的力量震撼了。没什么言情小说那种不可能发生的事情，完完全全是一个青春期，男追女的暧昧关系。但一个男生会被女生影响的那么深，让我傻了眼。

或许，追求一个女生真的能改变一个男生。结果，好像没那么重要，只要享受那个过程就好。会那么想，或许是消极的吧。很羡慕柯腾，有那种勇气。换成是我，我只能慨叹为什么我那么懦弱、没用。青春，一个犯错的时代，但我却不敢犯错，步步为营。听着朋友说自己曾经犯错的故事，又那么开心，我觉得我很失败。

或许，过于要求完美了。

我视你为我的目标，学习柯腾，努力读书，有了条件再来追你。或许最终会失败，但我还是会很感激你。没有你，或许我的条件，永远都是梦。我很自私，非常自私。但，还是得为你所许下的承诺负起责任。

我一定会努力，无论是为了什么。