Thursday, 26 November 2009,
光阴似箭，短短一年，又将结束。时光匆匆，万事求快、求精、求准，把我考倒。比较起来，自己变了。不仅身材样貌，甚至思想行为，都变了样。为了赶上，无奈改变，却忘了自己。
如今，累了、憔悴了、想休息了，才愕然发现，路还有一半没有走完。我拖着疲惫的身躯再次振作，告诉自己，不能休息，得往前走。
短短的喘气时间，原来比我想象的还短暂... ...
23:43
Saturday, 14 November 2009,
再次到海边赴约，和久违的大海见面。这次和以往不一样，而我想接下来即使见面也会从此改变。
昨晚到海边，海风就像好友伸出手拍了拍我的肩似的，令人十分怀念。海浪拍打沙滩的声音、远处传来船只的鸣笛声响就像老朋友的问候似的，十分温暖、十分熟悉。瞭望黑漆漆的四周，除了远处船只的灯火以外，什么都看不到。不过，却有一个角落灯火通明，常常传出鸣笛声，好似去过，但却记不起来。原本有满腔苦水想要哭诉的我，顿时什么也说不出来。原本急躁的心情也随之平息。再站了会儿，我静静地向老友道别。夜晚的海风很冷，我的心，很冰凉... ...
今早，又走到了海边，等待。等待仿佛已经成为生活的习惯。我每每站在海边，都觉得是在等待什么出现，但总是失望落空。只见船只在海上缓缓而行，鸣笛声特显孤立。昨夜的喧哗，原来只是表面的，我的好友原来是孤独的。突然有个冲动想多陪陪你，在你寂寞之时，做你的好伴侣。我静静地站在沙滩上，享受着那难得的宁静。
忽然，许许多多的会议再次涌起。那灯火通明的角落，原来是个船厂，曾经是毕业前全班去玩的度假屋外的海边。我顿时后退，很想逃跑... ...
至今还未忘掉，因为打击太大，让我变了很多。赴约，却一直等不到人，只有和大海做伴。之前，很喜欢向他诉苦；如今，只想静静陪他。
14:21
Wednesday, 11 November 2009,
The troublesome PW has finally ended. One whole year of non-stop work, maybe except for Promos. As I walked out of 5-44 today, I felt a thousand tonne lighter. Results don't matter now. I did my best till the very end, although there were times where I felt like just throwing it away. No doubt, as what the HOD said, this may be one unforgettable experience in our JC life, be it good or bad.
Looking back now, let us not distribute the credit, who did the most, who slacked the most. To me, all group members have changed my way of facing problems, how I look at things and even how I should treat this life.
To Beier:
I do not know what to say to you as there are simply too many. You could have killed me, but I remember this poster at the MRT station. "Tough times never last, but tough people do." It is a miracle for me to tolerate some things you do until today. I shall not list them here, and rest assured that I will not list them out anywhere. For some reasons, I am able to control my very foul temper for a year. Maybe with Jianan's chill pills, maybe I have really grow. I must admit, sometimes I still throw a bit of tantrum and complains, but overall, you are safe from my scoldings. Because of the clash in working style and beliefs, I must thank you. If not for you, my temper may still be as bad as before, maybe even worse due to so many drastic changes around.
To Haoyan:
Must first apologise that I am using your facebook display picture instead of your photo. Couldn't find any in facebook nor the class pictures. Still looks cool anyway, as it gives you a sense of mystery which is very compatible with your diligence.
You are the member that I worry the most because you work the hardest. Having you in the group is indeed my honour. A computer expert, a very hard worker. When I hear that you can work up till 5am for our project, I am very worried, touched and guilty. Worried of your health, touched by your valuable contributions to the group and guilty for not being able to help. You are my source of motivation, and make me want to continue despite the fact that we are doing more than average.
Although PW ends here, we still have our CCA to continue to strive and work hard for. At least, you continue to give your very best and more... ...
To Clara:
At first sight, your silence and mere smile was rather irritating because we need ideas for our project, but you were not speaking. You are someone who taught me to have patience, something which I lack of in the past. To be patient to find out why you seldom talk, to have patience to solve the problem and to have patience to improve situations. In the end, my wait seems to pay off. Although there is room for improvements, but I am sure you have learn as much from this year, haven't you?
To Jianan:
The drug trafficker, who is an expert at trafficking this drug known as the chill pills. Your calmness in every situations is the direct opposite of the panicky me. Must really give you a salute for your might. You are, in my memory, the only person not affected by my rush till now. In fact, you calmed me down. I once looked at Benson as an example to follow, now I must learn from you too. I sometimes feel that it is a bit late to only know you now, to only befriend you at my lowest point. You will be a strict teacher, and I think I will do much better and maybe not end up in this state. Alas, that may be heaven's will for me to start all over again. I cannot imagine how disastrous it will be if the group is without you.
I do not know whether I was a enjoyable working partner, but you are definitely one. PW was not smooth sailing for both of us, but we are still bonded to one more project. If nothing goes wrong, I hope to work wonders with you and the group once again in the next upcoming project. It should be a must, nothing should go wrong, I really hope so... ...
Last but not least,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!!
With that final note, I can now happily exclaim that I have passed through the period of PW. Lols
19:59
Wednesday, 4 November 2009,
I still remember what Benson said on the MRT train yesterday. "Prepare for the worse and hope for the best." This is the plight I am in currently. May be a shock to many, even for myself. I cannot believe what situation I am in right now. It should not happen and not allowed to happen. Just have to stay strong and move ahead, I guess.
Was still busy with many minor things when Xin Yi sms-ed. Chalet changed to BBQ, can? Quite a disappointment at first. I remembered how the previous BBQ was like last year and how some of them wanted to chalet. I am sure Zheng Xiong has consider all possible advantages and disadvantages before coming to this desicion. Furthermore, I am not planning this, so it is wise for me to just agree. Whatever the case, I am looking forward to meeting them.
Things start to get from bad to worse after that. Venue wanted to be at Fushan Garden. Rui Xia not informed, officers may be invited... Suddenly, I have the urge to stop and interfere. But I realised that I am no longer in the state to do that. It is time for them to get things done their own ways and draw lessons learnt and improve.
The changes, suddenly feel very pressurised. I am afraid to go...
Lols
21:52