Tuesday, 26 January 2010,
I've realise that my hair is getting brittle. Thinner and thinner they have gotten, from black to brown they've changed. Time has hit me so hard, I must admit, I have to age.
I've realise that my memory has gone from bad to worse. I'll start to look for my specs even if I am wearing them. Now one more problem has arise, how can I manage my CCA life?
I've realise that friends can no longer be trusted at times. When knowing too much becomes a sin, and spreading them out turns everything stale, I wonder, how did I know you then? Maybe friendship aren't that pure afterall, and I really hope that I'm wrong.
I've realise that I am drifting apart now. When my presence is a nuisance, and work becomes the excuse of absence. Maybe that's the trend as we grow, from friends to lovers, and the playtime's all gone.
I've realise many things that I should not know. It's a burden to me, and turned everything sore. Upon reflection, I've realsie that Human Stupidity has caused it all... ...
20:00
Wednesday, 13 January 2010,
To the guy in green:
The enthusiasm of your parent is indeed very touching. For the whole day yesterday, parents like yours aren't much, although so many people attended. You seem to have the potential, though you look like you don't like Chinese much. Nevertheless, I hope you will consider our school still, even if in the end, you aren't in CLEP. =)
To the guy in Punggol:
我是你人生中逗留很短很短的过客。Although I do not know your name, but your passion in Chinese has indeed touched me. I really think that there aren't anymore people with similar background and share such a burning passion for Chinese. I hoped I have helped you and I really hope that I can see you in our school. However, I must apologise for giving you a piece of advise against my usual way of doing things.
I view first choice as the utmost important choice for entry to schools. For so many years, I have been telling people to choose a school that have high chances of being enrolled and it should be the best for you. Yet yesterday, I have foolishly advised you to waste your first 2 choices. I pray together with you that you can enter our school. Although chances of you seeing this is almost negligible, I hope you may reconsider what I've said. 我为我一时的兴奋，给了你错了的忠告道歉。我很希望你会有机会看到我所写的，三思而后行。我会为你祈祷，祈祷不会害了你、祈祷你能如愿以偿。
To the rest out there:
At times I must admit that we have gotten results that may not be able to grant us entry to our preferred schools. I assume that many of you will have the intention of appealing in and out, but remember, that such actions are risks that may put your future at stack, so think properly and even go through with your parents before making a desicion. I congratulate those who have scored what you have wanted for your exams and wish that you will get into a school of your choice. For those that didn't perform as what you were expecting, don't give up and stay positive, for even the worse things can yield best results.
Hope to see you guys soon. =)
22:54
Wednesday, 6 January 2010,
一则突如其来的流言，心血来潮，我开始挖掘，
挖掘那埋了很久的回忆，与那忘了的话语。
当时的依依不舍，虽已随风而去，但心还是隐隐作痛。
曾经我选择逃避，
逃避那收藏太多回忆的宝地。
如今很想回去，
却愕然发现，
大门已为我封闭。
我骄傲的一群，也即将踏上那走了二十余年的途径，
自然地，我也应该放手离去。
物是人非，留恋还有何用？
只可惜那一箱箱的回忆，
当时被我深锁此地，
如今却带不出去。
因为，
锁换了，钥匙开什么去？
16:48
If,
a blog can show its owner's personality,
I have to admit,
we have aged,
really.
If,
a blog can depict its owner's life,
I must say,
I've reached the pit.
Dear me.
If,
silence of our blog means a different thing,
then mine is forgotten,
while yours is well-hidden.
Isn't it?
If,
time could reverse everything,
will you want to stand at where you are now?
I'll like a change,
seriously.
If,
if can come true,
then life will be meaningless.
A life with no regrets,
may perhaps be the worse life led...
12:57
Friday, 1 January 2010,
2010 came bursting into the room just when I am still entangled with 2009. I lost the chance to thank many of my friends for the everything, so maybe I'll thank them here so that I can sleep peacefully tonight.
To Xing Yi:
Thank you for being my friend, my advisor and my best working partner throughout 2009. It is very pleasant to be able to work with you once more after a few years of rest. This time, you are the boss and I am your follower, a very weird arrangement by Heaven, but a good one.
With the work stress and the expanded number of people we are serving, it is indeed a challenge for the both of us. It was a very good opportunity for us to brush up our leadership skills and rectify our mistakes. It was a good time for us to build our 默契 (Forgive me, my EL standards are not as good as Sec Sch) and iron out the different ideas and beliefs we hold.
Although the time we spend isn't as long as it was expected, I really enjoy working with you. With utmost regret, I will continue with where you left off, but I hope you'll get it back from me if it's possible. We'll continue to keep in touch and go to school for next year, definitely!
To Qiqi:
This year, we celebrate of 10th year to be in the same class. So many years of quarrel, yet such a good "sister". The thought of how we knew each other is still so funny, although I cannot exactly remember the details. Take good care of your health and balance your work well. May we enjoy our 10th and final year to the max. Sigh, after 2010, I'll have to start calling you Senior le... Haha
To Zhe Fu:
Although we may not have known each other like how long I've knew Qiqi and Xing Yi, time spent together with you is definitely fun and exciting. At first sight, I thought that our personalities are completely different. You seemed to be the 'high' guy while I am the more serious one. I even worried about surviving the 15 days with you. Lols
Turned out that I was not in my usual self in Taiwan, and I enjoyed the time, especially nights spent together. I became so eager to each night, wondering what our room will do after room check. “我想我女朋友！肏，我想秦佳玉！”became the line that I have to listen to before I turn in each night and I got so used to it that I cannot sleep without listening to your line upon return. I seriously enjoy being your detective to look for your missing items every morning that even punctuality, the value I emphasised the most, was thrown off the mind and became something I hated.
Never thought that we will meet again so soon after the trip, to even be abandoned alone during New Year's Eve. Memories of my very first New Year's Eve celebration was sealed with your well wishes, and rest assured, that will be carried with me forever. It is just a bit sorry that we didn't go very far and was stuck at Bugis for so long. I thought I had bore you out. Haha.
Hope you have a wonderful year ahead. May your time with 佳玉 be always sweet forever. May everything come to a happy ending for you. Brother, I salute you!
To Ya Huan:
Another 1705 guy that changed my life. Looking at your name in the booklet for the first time, your worry was the complete opposite of Zhe Fu - Very quiet and serious, maybe too quiet and serious for me. Haha. You turned out to be as high and as fun as the rest of the 1705.
After knowing you, I feel guilty of my teacher's nickname, 新好男人. You are definitely more suitable for it. I look like a 伪君子when I stand beside you. Lols. Thank you for your card. I am very touched by it. My words and expressions are not good, but I will still like to wish you a Very Happy New Year.
May 2010 be the year that brings you the greatest surprise and happiness. 在此，发自内心地向你说声谢谢你。给你鞠躬！
23:42
I am late this year, or rather last year, to be exact. Used to post all reflections of the last day of the year, but this year, I'll do it on the first day of the New Year due to some circumstances.
2009 was a a very fast and busy year. Many special events have taken place, but things just happen so quickly that I have no recollections of some. I'll list those that I remember, to round up 2009 properly.
After months of waiting, we managed to get into NYJC, where we begin writing the new chapter of our lives.
《红烧排骨》, my very first 戏剧watched.
CLEP writing camp, the very first time I met with the entire CLEP family of Singapore.
Chalet of 0915.
LOVE my GOOD LTC campmates forever!
Highlight of the year: CLEP Taiwan Immersion Trip. (5 Dec-19 Dec)
Last event of the year: Countdown to 2010 (Part 1).
2009 went just as quickly as it came... Wishing all my friends a very Happy New Year. May 2010 be filled with surprises with no unhappy events. Although I may forget what we've been through momentarily, the mark that you've left in my heart will be forever. One day, I'll remember our time spent together again, I promise... ...
23:30