I thought I could get over the struggle and return ASAP. I thought I did. Just realised that it is actually the start of a bigger storm. History seems to be repeating itself, the part that I hope I can forget. As I watch things unfold slowly in front of my eyes, the pain is extreme that I really feel like running away, forever...

Problems starts to surface clearly and I grew irritated. Decided to take things into my hands, with the presence of a teacher, just in case I spins out of control. Everything went smoothly, but I grew even more irritated and starts hurting people 1 by 1. Those that I feel are doing things 'worngly'.

When 1 thing goes wrong, it is common to see all other elements start to topple on you as well. Same goes for me. I really don't know where this will lead to. All I see is pitch darkness in front. Nobody can help me out this time, nobody. I've gotten all the help I need, and I have to depend on myself this time. To return to the surface and control which way I got to move.

Durian... Like a durian... prickly on the outside, soft and easily broken on the inside...