Saturday, 10 January 2009,
Throughout the holiday, I have been working like a bull and trying all sorts of ways to keep my mind shut from wandering. 2009 came, and I realise that the only way of keeping the mind shut is not running away from it, but face itand try resolving it. I had been a pessimistic guy. It's time to look on the bright side and try enjoy life...
So long after graduation, I find myself deflated. 觉得很疲倦。以没那股冲力，想往上爬了。开始觉得以前很无聊，想要这个，要那个。最终虽拿到了，却感到更不开心。那么多的头衔，那么多的忧虑。
觉得自己很笨，被不实际的东西冲昏了头，却忽略了最宝贵的东西 - 友谊。现在，已没有那个勇气再面对他们了。Finally, I can put my emotions into words. Yup, that's what I feel. I may have done something wrong and cause some of my friends to be unhappy. That's why I am avoiding you guys. We used to hang out together quite happily. But now, I feel that my presence is a form of awkwardness.与其双方板着张脸同坐一桌，不如我缺席，心情肯定快乐些。=)
That's the last trouble that has been hidden in my heart. Now that I can finally put them into words and let them out, I'll have no more unhappy memories kept in the heart. Let's move on forward 2009 and hope for the very best.
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